Plain and simple, it's fucking broken.

Upper caf

I never realized how many ambiguous people there are around Salem State. Are you a boy or a girl? The world may never know...

Anatomy

I should be studying for an anatomy test in a few hours. Today started off pretty well. Anatomy lab at 7:30 am. Went to forest river after and walked in an exercising type of way. Felt good after and showered and had a turkey sandwich. Made science happen in chem lab. Now I'm sitting here in the library with Tibbs trying to study. Maybe listening to Elliott Smith was a bad idea because I'm feeling sad. How do you just give someone up? All I want are answers to my impossible questions.

Oh hey

So today not so bad. Feeling alright, had a lab practical at 7:30 am and made a few mistakes because I didn't read the question all the way. Oh welllll. I spent too much money on groceries so thank god I get paid on Friday. Now I need to do homework that I avoid and then regret later because I'm raelly behind in most classes. Peace.

School

School has started and I already skipped a class twice. I have a lot of homework all the time but I never seem to get enough done. Probably because I like to do homework in a group and that ends up turning into people talking, unless we are in the lounge or I am with Jacqui, she likes to get things done. I started Whole Foods which is nice and I like it. I'm still sad a lot though and I miss Jared but Emily gives good advice and I have to try and follow it. Things are going to suck for awhile but eventually I'll start feeling better. That's the attitude I'm trying to take but right now I feel like I'm just trying to keep my head above the water.

UHHHHHHHHHHH

So, new car has been a pain in the ass. It has been taken to the dealer's garage in Dedham three times. First time because it didn't pass inspection, second because my mechanic checked it out and said there was a leak in the transmission. After this was "fixed" I went up to salem for the week before I was going to the Cape for vacation. Went to Jared's for his brothers' grad party and the next day his dad noticed that I had leaked quite a bit of transmission fluid. I ended up breaking down on 95 near Lexington. Got a tow from there to Bellingham. Car then got towed to Dedham where they had to put in a new transmission. The good thing about this is that we haven't had to pay for any of this. Other than the car trouble things are good. I start Marshalls tomorrow. Which is good because I'm tired of sitting around the apartment. I need to grocery shop today and do some other errands. I miss everyone at home. Oh yea and the cape was good. I caught two fish at once...the big fish I caught puked out a small one it had eaten. I'm rambling so later.

Awake

I can't sleep. I did something I knew was a bad idea and saw something I would rather not have seen. I don't know why it hits me so hard when I feel hurt. Things would probably be a lot easier if I let things go/not let them affect me so much. However, I get this snowball effect on my thoughts and they eventually grow into a monster that can't be stopped.

Sweet new whip!!

NEW CAR!!! toot toot!

I hope America had a good birthday! I enjoyed drive in/carnival/fireworks/swimming/food and much more the last three days. I also have a new car although it is currently in Walpole. I look forward to forging a new friendship with my little gold saturn. However, it will never compare to Roxanne. I am also looking forward to some nice weather because I am sick of the dreary crap that we have been having.

I can't believe that it's July already. Summer always goes by so quick and I've been out of school for two months. Insane. My new favorite show is now Wipeout. I am going to look at a car tomorrow in Walpole and I hope this is the one. I am also going to apply to target as soon as possible and hopefully Kohls calls back or something. At this point I don't care how shitty the job may be because I really just need a job. Other than that things are pretty alright.

I'm sick of packing already

I'm packing to move into the new apartment in Salem. I'm not really ready to go, I just have to at the moment so it's not a huge waste of money. I want to spend the summer here with my friends, but hey, what can you do? I also realized that what I used to do is very different from what I do now. Weird how that happens...

First

So Emily told me to make one of these, and I will because why not I guess... I
ll write more later.